Asif Khan Inc.

Will

Who do I turn to, now that I’ve left you?
Or can I really turn to one
when I’ve forsaken
the One?

Brought into this world without a will,
Burdened with the will to perform deeds -
Deeds transforming into actions answerable -
Answerable for all that’s pre-ordained?

I never had the will,
A will I never had…

Have stood in front of you,
Bowed to you,
Laid prostate,
Have cried hysterically vain
in the mother’s womb that’s you
For you know, I never was the apostate.

I never had the will,
A will I never had.

Believed in the call to the faithful,
Ingrained that is, in my psyche -
Your Glory unperturbed,
with or without my faith
Born faithful wasn’t my will
Staying faithful isn’t mine either.

I never had the will,
A will I never had.

Lost in vacillating thoughts,
My existence held by your strings
Heaven or Hell would be the Definite Infinite
Finite in this existence I’d rather be never
Or get a peep through the looking glass
To be found lost…

But, I never had the will
A will I never had…

Who do I turn to now…

06 Mar ’07